Ugh.

See, now like all my friends have blogs. Yes, this is a good thing I suppose. I just...I mean you want people to read what you write. You want people to care, pay attention about YOU, what YOU did. I always try to read other's stuff before doing my blog and commenting. In seventh grade, I wrote a poem about envy. I envied these other people in my class because they were much better than me at poetry and writing. But envying is almost mean. I don't envy my friend's blogs. I don't. Sure, some of them have really awesome, awesome posts and ideas. I would never have thought of some things they say. But I don't want to be annoying or anything. They are just being them and I'm being me. Everyone's different, everyone is them. I guess I'll just try to be me. Not try any harder than usual to express myself. But then, what if being me isn't enough? What if I don't belong with such awesome people? I feel insecure I guess. People tell me I need more self-confidence. I think maybe I'm just over-reacting; everything is just so...annoying right now, what with us moving and everything. Ugh. Thanks for commenting, all that did. I really like comments. I don't even know. What I'm saying. Ugh, it's just...I feel like deleting my blog because it's so boring, stupid and generic compared to everyone else's. But I won't. Because since when was it a competition? Since when would my friends not care? I guess I'll just keep doing what I do, keep being me and not try to compare myself. I'll try. And I'm sorry.