But! Good news, folks. Only 120 days left, which probably means that maybe, just maybe, the posts might get slightly, maybe just slightly, more optimistic. Or maybe more cheerful/interesting/readable. But then again, should a writer assume things with their own writing...? Well I was just thinking.
And now, watch/read (with your pink eyes..), as I, your *cough* distinguished writer, attempt to run through the problem through blogging, perhaps in a pixeled trial to solve/organize the many thoughts circulating. But for some reason, I shall be writing it as if I was talking to someone. Maybe that way it won't seem like I'm a crazy hallucinatory that talks to herself, and that doesn't have readers.
So, as you probably know, I have to decide what courses I'll be taking next year and stuff. And stuff. Stuff, in this case, includes, but is not limited to, things I feel are necessary to worry about.
Take for example, the fact that I have not been learning history or geography pretty much at all this entire school year.
A product, no doubt, of the (*#%*!#*&$%^@##$&ing stupid French system. See, with the French school system, they don't even try to pretend to give that whole, "we want to provide the best learning environment for each individual" thing. Or any variation. Rather, it's quite the opposite; they make the students (and there are many) fit into their system, which is just the worst thing ever.
Of course, this is the slightly skeptical opinion from an annoyed teenager who was abruptly and without choice or interest thrust into the #*%&# system, so I dunno.
Let's take a look at my schedule, shall we?
I have a total of about 35 hours of actual school classes per week, and about 7 hours for lunch. These include:
On week A:
-7 hours of French math (including math speciales)
-5 hours of FLE
-4 hours of French
-4 hours of Spanish
-3 hours of English (I woud have 4, but a new FLE schedule changed that...)
-2 hours of sport (gym)
-2 hours of English math
-1 and a half hours of life and earth science
-1 hour of physical sciences
-1 hour of etude
-1 hour music
-1 hour art
On week B:
Same thing, except5 hours of French and only 1 hour of sport (gym).
I used to have 2 hours of French history/geo but because of FLE and Math Speciales (Which I shall refer to as MS), that is now completely removed. But that's just as well, because I didn't learn hardly anything, much less understand.
I used to have 2 hours of sport, but because I had MS the second hour, I could skip it.
I also, long long ago, had technologie for an hour and a half, but that also got removed by MS.
So, even though we are learning algebra in French math and trigonometry in English math, I'm not feeling all that confident going back to the old US system, my career of which (which) has been so rudely interupted.
I almost already feel like a "high school dropout"; I keep telling my parents that the school system back there won't really care about "once in a life-time experiences" and "scenic views"; they want me to be passing their tests, taking AP classes or whatever they're called and just fitting into their system.
So, ugh, I somehow have to learn a whole year's worth of American history/geography and possibly algebra. My dad says it's possible.
I want to learn algebra.
I want to learn American history/geography.
I wish I could just ask the school over here to cut me some slack.. I mean, I dunno... MS is pretty unnecessary, and I don't like or really need Spanish (I'm already learning 2 languages- gimme a break), I also don't really need life and earth science (I learned the stuff last year and stuff), or French class (not FLE- the French French class).
I mean, come on. I want an education here. And yeah yeah you adult types (and maybe kids) will just say, "if you want an education, you have to put in the effort, make wise choices" and blah blah. Which I don't disagree with, but... attempting to learn in sort of 2 different school systems at the same time, one being incredibly stressful, does not really work with me.
I try over here. It's not like I don't want to learn. Sometimes I'm disappointed with myself with not trying as hard as I thought I would, but you just... ugh.
Looking at this with an optimistic attitude- is algebra really that important? The first year to finish this year, I mean. I mean, I'll be in different classes than most of my friends, but I think I can take geometry and algebra in the same year sometime... as for history/geography, I think I should probably do something about that though. Because, really, there has been no learning involved. Unless you take in account my picturesque travels to different European countries, and seeing different places such as England, Italy and not to mention France. But still. None of that "capital of such-and-such country" and the governments and listening to those taped dialogues in the city stuff.
Do I regret these past 8 months? No.
Do I think it's worth it? I admitted I thought it was a few months ago.
It'll look great on my college application and all that jibb-kaj (new word), but the problem now is actually getting to college....
But, in other news, it's actually really seriously March.
8 months down.
4 is not such a big number. I mean, I've almost dreamed of being here. And here I am! Actually really seriously going to go home.
Ergh. Italy post probably going to be posted soon. Sorry about delay. And pictures. Tons of pictures.
Have fun with March. Almost there.
Take for example, the fact that I have not been learning history or geography pretty much at all this entire school year.
A product, no doubt, of the (*#%*!#*&$%^@##$&ing stupid French system. See, with the French school system, they don't even try to pretend to give that whole, "we want to provide the best learning environment for each individual" thing. Or any variation. Rather, it's quite the opposite; they make the students (and there are many) fit into their system, which is just the worst thing ever.
Of course, this is the slightly skeptical opinion from an annoyed teenager who was abruptly and without choice or interest thrust into the #*%&# system, so I dunno.
Let's take a look at my schedule, shall we?
I have a total of about 35 hours of actual school classes per week, and about 7 hours for lunch. These include:
On week A:
-7 hours of French math (including math speciales)
-5 hours of FLE
-4 hours of French
-4 hours of Spanish
-3 hours of English (I woud have 4, but a new FLE schedule changed that...)
-2 hours of sport (gym)
-2 hours of English math
-1 and a half hours of life and earth science
-1 hour of physical sciences
-1 hour of etude
-1 hour music
-1 hour art
On week B:
Same thing, except5 hours of French and only 1 hour of sport (gym).
I used to have 2 hours of French history/geo but because of FLE and Math Speciales (Which I shall refer to as MS), that is now completely removed. But that's just as well, because I didn't learn hardly anything, much less understand.
I used to have 2 hours of sport, but because I had MS the second hour, I could skip it.
I also, long long ago, had technologie for an hour and a half, but that also got removed by MS.
So, even though we are learning algebra in French math and trigonometry in English math, I'm not feeling all that confident going back to the old US system, my career of which (which) has been so rudely interupted.
I almost already feel like a "high school dropout"; I keep telling my parents that the school system back there won't really care about "once in a life-time experiences" and "scenic views"; they want me to be passing their tests, taking AP classes or whatever they're called and just fitting into their system.
So, ugh, I somehow have to learn a whole year's worth of American history/geography and possibly algebra. My dad says it's possible.
I want to learn algebra.
I want to learn American history/geography.
I wish I could just ask the school over here to cut me some slack.. I mean, I dunno... MS is pretty unnecessary, and I don't like or really need Spanish (I'm already learning 2 languages- gimme a break), I also don't really need life and earth science (I learned the stuff last year and stuff), or French class (not FLE- the French French class).
I mean, come on. I want an education here. And yeah yeah you adult types (and maybe kids) will just say, "if you want an education, you have to put in the effort, make wise choices" and blah blah. Which I don't disagree with, but... attempting to learn in sort of 2 different school systems at the same time, one being incredibly stressful, does not really work with me.
I try over here. It's not like I don't want to learn. Sometimes I'm disappointed with myself with not trying as hard as I thought I would, but you just... ugh.
Looking at this with an optimistic attitude- is algebra really that important? The first year to finish this year, I mean. I mean, I'll be in different classes than most of my friends, but I think I can take geometry and algebra in the same year sometime... as for history/geography, I think I should probably do something about that though. Because, really, there has been no learning involved. Unless you take in account my picturesque travels to different European countries, and seeing different places such as England, Italy and not to mention France. But still. None of that "capital of such-and-such country" and the governments and listening to those taped dialogues in the city stuff.
Do I regret these past 8 months? No.
Do I think it's worth it? I admitted I thought it was a few months ago.
It'll look great on my college application and all that jibb-kaj (new word), but the problem now is actually getting to college....
But, in other news, it's actually really seriously March.
8 months down.
4 is not such a big number. I mean, I've almost dreamed of being here. And here I am! Actually really seriously going to go home.
Ergh. Italy post probably going to be posted soon. Sorry about delay. And pictures. Tons of pictures.
Have fun with March. Almost there.
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