Saturday, November 29, 2008

Ha ha its zero

Late night blogging.... I came back from Thanksgiving dinner and all and now everyone is off chat and all and I don't know. And then ugh.

I should make this short because I seriously need sleep.

I hate how I feel like I can lose my friends, and then experience (or at least be informed about) one of my pretty good friends losing one of her really really good friends. That's not cool. STOP THAT.

You just have to think about things though because they might seem really stupid and horrible on the spot, but after thinking about it, it will probably seem not so bad and like you overreacted.

Emotions. I actually kinda feel like I have some of the French stuff down. Like, I miss my friends like hell and all, but I can sort of control it. Or at least numb/ignore/channel it. And it doesn't control me as much. I guess.

I'm about to fall asleep. Will this be another crappy horrible weekend like all the rest? We shall see... I have a whole bunch of HW but actually I don't even hate HW. Stop saying I'm weird because of that. I'm weird but... just yeah.

In art it was fun. As it usually is. This keyboard is so screwy. Good night you alls.

1 comment:

Karina said...

hey, wow i just got back from thanksgiving dinner, and... no one is on chat either. *sighs*

I hate that feeling too, but in the end you find out which people are really your friends, I've found out a lot from being away, you get be an observer, and you get so much out of just looking. Also because you find out about everything from just listening to different peoples point of view.
I'm sorry that your friend (my friend?) is losing one of her good friends. that sucks, seriously, STOP/ STOP. STOP. not cool at all man.

Emotions, can control you, i'm glad you can control at least some of it, it really helps sometimes just to realize where you are. And well realize that you can't always be there for everything. Oh wow, that just made it even worse didn't it? sorry.

I really hope you don't have a crappy horrible weekend Amelia, Maybe when we call you it'll be better huh? I think i will probably see you on chat tommorrow, and then we can figure out a time. phone calls are much much better, no misunderstadings and you can hear each other laugh.

good nite, get lots of dreamless (or good dreamful) sleep.