But all the rain comes down the same, falling to from where it came, on the ground then back around up into the sky

Hmm. As I was walking home today after science, I was thinking about the one word I would use to describe this whole thing so far. At first I thought "interesting", but then "different" seemed better. School is sort of getting better, but the days are so long and so stupid and so... long again. I got some math homework but it wasn't too bad. And Spanish homework, but that wasn't too bad either. The "sciences de la vie et terre" is like life sciences. The teacher seemed pretty nice. They have so much complicated stuff here; they want straight lines for a box and have like 4 different types of notebook sizes and whatnot. It's confusing. And stupid. I have hockey practice tonight, which means I'll be getting like 7 hours of sleep. I don't really like it here. There's a part of me that wants to just give up. To just not go to school, to lay down and die. To stop this madness. I'm not happy here. This was supposed to be almost worry-free and I could just "let go" of school, but I'm worrying almost more. I'm lonely; in between classes when we have a 15-minute recess, all I do is stand around and worry. I hate being so helpless and hopeless. I don't like the system here. I never thought I'd say this, but I like the American system is great compared to this. The principals here are huge control freaks. My day is so long and I don't have fun. I don't have anyone to just talk to comfortably, to just hang out and be with. But then there's also that part of me that wants to just do this, to just get it over with. I've gotten this far (2 months), might as well finish this. But how can it be worth it? Yeah yeah I know. French, experience, etc... but this life just isn't... do-able for me. I can't do this. I don't want to. Perhaps I should just let go more. If that makes sense.

I'm singing in the rain
just singing in the rain
what a glorious feeling I'm happy again
I'm laughing at clouds
so dark up above
the suns in my eye and I'm ready for love
let the story clouds chase
come on with the rain
I have a smile on my face
now walk down the lane
with a happy refrain
just singin', singing in the rain
(Singing in the Rain- Gene Kelly)
(Title: Spring and a Storm-Tally Hall)